Black cloud

Craig and I went to a wedding reception tonight of the daughter of a cute girl that lived in the basement apartment of our house in Sugarhouse many years ago. We haven't seen them in years and have only kept in touch mainly by Christmas cards. They were excited to see us and us them. When she asked what was going on with us, the first thing I thought of is of course the cancer. But Craig and I had decided before we went to the reception that we wouldn't talk about it at this happy event. It's hard to not talk about it when it's the first thing always on our minds. As we walked out Craig said, "it's like a black cloud that follows us around". So true, I can't imagine that when we're at Home Depot picking out plants or at Zupas eating soup tonight, that everyone else isn't thinking about cancer too.

I've been giving the octreotide shots to Craig again since Tues. night. On Wed. I left for a lunch downtown before Craig got his shot so he had to administer it himself for the first time. He hates shots...but who doesn't? He's trying just 2 shots a day for the first 4-5 days to help his body get used to them again. He really feels the affects of the shots some days and other days he seems to tolerate it better. Today hasn't been the best of days, his stomach hasn't felt great, he's bloated and he is tired. I'm not much better with a bad cold myself. He can't get my cold...he does not need that!

Craig has an appointment with Dr. Burdett, an intervention radiologist, on May 27th. This is the doctor that will administer the chemo through the liver-directed therapy or chemoembolization. It's still frustrating that treatment isn't moving along at a very fast pace. Dr. Jones says that this is a slow growing cancer and it isn't necessary to rush into treatment. Maybe not for her...