I'm feeling frustrated...waiting for the biopsy tomorrow has been too many days. Then I know that we won't know anything yet so we'll wait more days for the results. I'm frustrated because Craig still has cancer and nothing is being done yet to stop it. OK, I know he's getting the octreotide shots 3X a day, but they've only made his symptoms worse. He's just not feeling that great. I need to be more patient but I'm not good at that. I want help for him now and I want someone to make the cancer go away!
On the good news of the day...we had family pictures taken this afternoon at Wheeler Farm by Heather George, expert photographer. She took about 500 pictures...so something should turn out ok. She took Chase's senior pictures and then the family, the kids and Craig, me and Craig. It was bittersweet. When she told Craig and I to look at each other, I started crying. The reality of the situation and why we were taking the pictures became very real.
Pray for us tomorrow!! Thanks for everyone's love and concern. Craig says to keep smiling...that's what we did for 2 hours today at Wheeler Farm!
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Crying is good. It's just... inconvenient sometimes. *hugs*
ReplyDeleteI think we inherited our lack of patience, little sister, but you are waiting to get the best care possible for Craig. I'm sure it's maddening. I'm so glad that you had some portraits done - they just may NOT be the last. Have faith - we are all praying and sending positive thoughts your way. Love, Kathy
ReplyDeleteYikes Suzy...you and I have the exact same thoughts. When Craig told me they were waiting for the biopsy due Thursday before starting the aggressive treatments, all I could think was "why wait 4 more days?". Hang in there...we are praying for Craig and the family. We love you guys!
ReplyDeleteThe waiting is getting to me too! I think that is why we Doutres tend to have that "wandering gene", we just can't stand sitting around waiting for things to happen! I think of the photos as a great reminder of a moment in time--not the first, not the last, not the best, not the worst! As long as I am around, and have my fun new camera, you know there will be many more photos yet to be! We are all thinking of you and praying for you-everyday! You are at the center of my heart these days!
ReplyDeleteSo you aren't totally confused...that last posting was from your sister, Lisa, not my daughter Lexi! Sorry I didn't know she had logged in before me! Sending our love, love,love! Lisa
ReplyDeleteCraig and Suzy...thanks so much for staring this blog...this all a bit new for me. Craig, I was shocked to hear your news, but, encouraged that it was neuroendocrine. Marie and I fasted last Sunday with the rest of the family and I put your name on the Manhattan and Washing DC temple rolls. I love you cousin, hang in there...it usually takes a couple of weeks for the octreotide to kick in, besides relief of symptoms this drug does have some anti-growth or stabilizing effects. I wish we weren't so far away...I'll keep checking for updates. Later...
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